'P.S. I love you'................sobbing

+JJAE YOUNG+

Indeed a nice book, made me oohed and aahed while reading
even it's kinda late to read now, have no idea when this book was published
A very touching story, I almost burst into tears sarcastic........impossible...... , seeing a women in her early thirties, strife from happiness and lost, as if there is still a kind of story in today's society. At least a dumb-dumb like me learnt a bit. As a grieving young widow, the ten letters from her late husband, intended to ease her out of grief and transition her to a new life. How lucky is her, having a thoughtful husband. After reading the book it feels like I could miraclely sense the striving-in-pain feeling, it left you no other options but forced to face difficulties, all you have to do is be brave. I don't meant to be rude, the only thing that doesn't satisfy me is that as if were no climax in the story....... Umm, don't take it hard just giving out my own opinion...........

REALLY REALLY GONNA STICK TO MY SOCIAL LIFE OR I'LL ENDED UP LOSING IT!!!!!!

thrashed..devastated..dissapointment

today's birthday gathering..

it was far from what i had expected =.=

err i guess i'll describe it as a total wash-out

or maybe i'm just exasperating

we skated for like 2 hours, merely

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what happened before that..urgh

it's something i don't want to recall

cuz it'll only remind me of how daft and gormless i was.

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skating was fun..but thanks to my useless socks i have two plasters on each of my ankles :(

it stings horribly whenever the tiniest, slightest drop of water gets in contact with that particular part

me and shiinyi tried (intensively but effortlessly) to teach liwei how to skate

but neither of us were good "educators", and i'm not a brilliant skater myself

nevertheless, she's capable of maintaining her balance in a better way now

i fell thrice,

and honestly i don't really know how i fell

everything seemed to happen so abruptly till my brain couldn't interpret quick enough to react in the normal way

the six of us were just standing there

i guess my legs went numb and somehow tangled themselves till i lost my balance

so i landed on my ass, IN FRONT OF EVERYONE x.x

how abashing is that?? i guess i MUST have looked exceedingly hilarious..

*my jeans looked like they just came out from the washing machine*

but there was a crowd, so i din really enjoyed myself

cuz i couldn't skate freely and swift enough, without considering the fact that i may accidentally crash heavily into someone

we had lunch somewhere at asian avenue (i forgot the name of the restaurant)

seckvoon and daph had some super-duper pedas korean food

which turned my water pipe on

sy and lw went shopping while jeremiah sat there reading yu-gi-oh =.='

what a funny thing to do ;D

after lunch, we camwhored

plus had fun shooting balls into hoops at the game machines ;)

shiinyi was busy editing the pictures they took

while me, daph, my sis, seckvoon and jeremiah bought some tokens and tried the shooting game

seckvoon went a lil mad,

remember the fact that when she goes crazy,

she influences the ppl around her, then everybody goes insane too =D

i just vaguely remember flunking the balls at the hoop, furiously and as fast as i could

*when was the last time i've felt so crazy?? ages ago*

it's fun, to spend some valuable time with your friends, doing crazy stuff

it was such a plain, simple matter,

and yet i felt like all the stress, pressure, mood swings that i've been experiencing throughout this period has been released

*phew*

anyway i realize that my shooting skills have gone haywire, lacking training, *shoot*

could be possibly going to the gym, for the first time, tomorrow

it's just a one week trial...i'll exercise as much as i can ;)

I WANT THIS DESPERATELY, I KNOW CLEARLY THERE ARE NO OTHER OPTIONS FOR ME TO GET THIS, BUT NO.1 IS JUST IMPOSSIBLE FOR ME!!!!!!!!!
DARN IT........
IT'S TAUNTING ME EVERY SECOND I SAW THIS

I guess I could just stiffle my sobs............

+JJAE YOUNG+

I'm in a foul mood today.My dad canceled our Australia trip. "Oh what the hell the problem is...."I growled at my parents, like someone who has an EQ of 40. Obviously, they were astounded to my sudden retaliation, for someone who's calm like me, it was completely crazy (DUH I don't even argued with my parents before) Actually I feel like apologizing, but till now I refused to, it's one of their unbearable reasons, again, this is why I disagreed vehemently. What would possibly sane someone to trade a trip to a meeting?! (yeah, career, rite...)It does'nt feel good at all, when you're in cloud nine, then someone makes you dissapointed in such a sudden, how could you endure the dissapointment easily, when you are expecting something so much..........
To say the truth, I really, really hate myself being emotional. Eventhough I've been in Melbourne almost a zillion time, but this is different, I expect something to be different. But now, it seemed to be zero. I could'nt do anything now, I could just stiffle my sobs..........

tension =.=

first day of our exams!!

i was feeling quite nervous, for no reason

(to be honest, my left hand trembled non-stop while i was answering my science paper)

we had English and Science today.

english was simple,

i bet truckloads of ppl will scrap an A or even 95 above for it, without summary and literature

and most of all, with ms. yvonne doing the markings,,it's possible

no offence..although i appreciate the fact that she's trying really hard to be a good teacher

the topic was really common-a day at the beach

(god we're no longer primary school students, realize that kayy??)

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as for science, it was really easy as well

although i wasn't 110% confident with some of my answers, still i'm sure i can manage an A

i bet weisin can even score full marks, with that nimble brain of hers

with bm geo sjrh kh and math left to go,

just hoping that i won't let myself down ;)

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've been training and practising running lately,

3kms a day..i wonder if it's enough (obviously not, i think)

it's energy-consuming, and i'm not capable of going much further

plus you need to push and encourage yourself to keep going on

"keep going on..it'll be over in just a few minutes"

"just imagine the day (4/5)..when you get a taste of revenge..it'll be sweet"

blahhh..self-comfort

anyway, music doesn't really help in easing that exhausted, lacking-hope-to-go-on feeling when you're running

i learnt that on 28/2: larian mesra

gawd i was fumbling with the damn earphones all the way

it brought hassles, instead of soothing my emotions

and no matter how much i tried to concentrate on the music ,

my mind was like " argh!! i'm soooo tired, i wanna quit" along the way

in the end, i got third place and certain ppl were like "huh why din you get first place"

look i know you don't mean to be offensive but that really hurt

wanna know what's worse??

i lost my medal without realizing the matter till idk when

i'm not upset (it's a bronze one, not a gold one, so no big deal)

it's just that..how can i be so idiotic, dim-witted??

but at least i gained 3 "valuable" (sarcastically) lessons which you don't need to know

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i remind myself to try as hard as i can,

i understand your feelings

i know what it feels like

cuz i've been through a lot

the number of times i've experienced such a feeling-more than you could ever imagine

but i'm not the main problem of whole matter

you are.

you're not being paranoid, it's true

your instincts are true

*longest post ever..i guess*

Immature s.....

+JJAE YOUNG+

Generally, mostly teenagers in Malaysia are childish, mostly not every. One of my Australian friend told me "Asian aren't that reserved as we thought," Then I asked her why, curiously, she said "I saw a couple of teenage guys on the street shouting 'fuck you' to each other, well also in a fury tone, but how could they do that in a public area," totally speechless...............
I don't get it, how could they use words without comprehending the word's meaning itself, why won't you just butt out and keep your mouth shut. These people are commented as 'immatures'. Aren't they ashamed after knowing the true meaning of that word, especially the situation of 'boys and boys' or 'girls and girls'. Haiz, immatures.

huge problems..am i being paranoid??

*sigh*

something exceedingly awful happened yesterday evening

something that i don't feel like reciting all over again

it hurts to even think about it..

but it really woke me up

it helped me realize the fact that i have no sense of responsibility at all.

i'm such an awful, immature person

when will i grow up?

now, i really wanna grow up, till i'm old enough to leave

why can't i just sprout wings out all of a sudden and fly away,,

leaving these indescribable ppl way behind,, mourning, repentant for what they've done

i'm trying extremely hard to play my role, to fullfill my task, what i'm supposed to do

but you guys just won't let me.

as if it would kill to stop picking on me

what good will it do you??

i will, no, i MUST prove that i'm not merely what you think i am.

i will be more suceeding than anyone of you.

and by that time, don't mention the word "forgive".

we are merely total strangers with blood relationship, which i rather not own

is there anything that is capable of cheering me up now??

*going through a seriously hard time now*

i won't regret this,,or will i, someday??

Valentine's Day- Redbox Karaoke

+안녕하세요 Jjae Young Here...+
LOL, it was lyk kinda late for me to post this today.....
Yesterday was valentine's day, as a single, I'm quite surprised when Jayson and a few of my cousin were at my hse after school. LOL clumsy me, forgetting about our date to Sunway Pyramid. First thing, the gals(including me)went shopping. Blahblahblah, then of course redbox karaoke, as I thought, crowded, couples by couples, flowers everywhere. Luckily one of my cousin booked one room for karaoke purposes,or else we'll hav to queue up lyk sillies... But still, we hav to share a room with a few Japanese guy. LOL the gals went gaga over the guys cus most of them are good looking. They asked for their hp no., email add.....haiz, maybe I should have asked cus it's valentine(eventhough it would not work out)I have completely no idea about flirting....still pathetic. To be honest, they need to work out on their English, though a few of my cousins know how to speak japanese, I hardly understand them in English. Since the gals are 'flirting' singing is okay for me.But at least I get 86 since my singing skills are lame, lame compared to my cousin's, his singing is always good. Sometimes I get envy of my cousins, most of them have both looks and money, I have nothing, why is this so unfair...(keep on mumbling).Ummm another boring Valentine's day for singles lyk me, I guess........

*no offence*

today is valentine's day.

it's an extremely important day for the couples out there ;)
or to be more frank-the girls only, perhaps
but for us-the single ones ;D-it's no big deal, all we do is observe and discuss the matter among ourselves

i just can't figure out why some ppl are so desperate for valentine's presents.
they go sulky and pull a long face after the day is over and they have to return empty-handed. no red roses or sweet chocolates ; no cute and cuddly soft toys ;

all you have is a broken heart.

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and for some ppl, it's no use pretending you're not crestfallen or depress.

secretly you wish to be like the popular ones who received presents

in my opinion, it's a day which helps you in noticing how certain ppl can be really ostentatious. =.=

if you know what i mean, of course :)
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anyway liwei carmen weisin and kenny lost their bet--no prezzies for shinwern from jinjun
thank god i wasn't involved in this, i don't wanna waste my rm5

currently watching happy tree friends.

yea i know it sounds really childish. but who cares??

it can be gross, disgusting or even scary (for some ppl) but hilarious at the same time

my favourite character is..flippy? the psycho one xD

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alright,,have to go now. byess.