Me

Hey D:)
Daphne here

well,i have done my new blog so maybe can visit it sometimes..
and leave sumthing on the cbox...
so it wont be lonely ...
thx
here is the web..
http://daphnecmy.blogspot.com

back to posting.

Weisin here..

it's been a long time since my last post..

i rarely have the mood 2 post anything in the blog..

things happened recently..

it's finally over...i guess..?

and lol..my maid ran away wif her bf wtf

have to start doing housework..

juz hate it when my mum keep asking me to do things n grumble tat everything i did is not good enough ..

looking forward to meet my primary sch frens too..

miss them so much..

guess i'll hv to end the post since there's nth more i can say..

byess

JJAE YOUNG

+이게 내 인생을가는 방법입니다+

+PATHETIC+

+얼마나 불행한+

+나는 이상한 사람과 완벽한 혹시 나를 만나고 불행한있습니다 오전 충분히 떨어져 비명을 +실행하십시오
(난 그냥 농담이야)

+못된+

+멍청이+
( So they often called me "어리석은 여자가" or "말을 못하는")

+우리 엄마 열받네요+
SWT ==" in some particular ways

P.S. ppl who know korean well will find this funny, or, well, useless, I'm just plainly insulting myself.

occasionally i seriously wish i could read minds..like edward cullen

and that outrageous desire is currently getting addictive day by day

but i just gotta accept the fact that he's just a fictional character

've been feeling completely emo lately

i regret,, and the person behind this is you

why did i ever compromise in the first place

..i despise that sinking feeling

don't make me force my way through it..

;;

anyway, we made cookies for amanda

i think this "cookies as a gift matter" is kinda starting to emerge as a tradition

was exceedingly crestfallen at the sight of the results after almost 2 hours of hard work

fortunately majority complimented it ;9

i feel lifeless..life is pointless

i'm fed up with every single repetitive routine

schedule(hehe)

~Daphne~
Haiz...so tired...

7.ooam
woke up ,then .....

8.ooam
at school for koko...damn stupid....scold me for not wearing uniform..
(u didnt get belasah from me is it?!summore scold my darlings also!)
then play some childish games ...STUPID!

9.30am
Go home...bye Carmen Bye weisin...I miss ur blackberry phone...

10.00am
shower.....

10.30 am
eat breakfast them mom came down from upstairs

11.ooam
me and my mom go a factory in sunway...GOT SALES!!
50%,70%
I bought a bag RM 65...a bit regret..sry mom..wasted ur okane....

12.00pm
came back ...eat lunch...

1.15 pm
go to japnese class.....the teacher suddenly came up to me...Shock
then she teach me (1 to 1) since last week didnt go...
a bit embarassed....some word forgot d liao :0
lucky teacher got say me idesu ne...haha...I love u teacher...

4.oopm
Ame....iitenki dewa arimasendeshita...
my dad picked me up from there and went home....

6.38pm
Im now writing....ok ,sayonara...got to go...



LAST WORD:I WANT TO CHANGE BACK MY DBSK!!!!!

I dreamt.

+JJAE YOUNG+

I coud'nt lie convincingly to myself, my reflection in the mirror. A puzzling thought came to my mind, will this dream turn into a reality, leaving me all alone and cry in sorrow? A blank, self-loathing, miserable and sombre-looking face, something had literally assailed me, why was'nt I doing my usual ablutions, is everything began to run havoc? This day, this hour, this moment, this second? As memories starting to coalesce, it tears my heart into bits mercilessly, to tell briefly, the pain is tremendous. I've tried various way to confront the pain, but nothing seems to ease the tension. I felt like giving up everything, returning to my "old-dear-life" which is so not me. I am not a nonchalant person, I'm probably just being schizoid. Your situation had been agonizing the emphasis on my words, you're really a fraud, a frivolous person, the arbitriter of my emotions. When your existence had became a neccesity in my life, maturity took over, seperating both of us to continue our lives, but unfortunately on two different paths. I was afraid, afraid that you'll become too important, afraid that it happened to be me, willing to give everything in my life, just to hold back the tears or bringing back 'valuable' memories which does'nt even belonged to me, to hide my true self being a coward. And there you left, this is incredulously unacceptable. FLASHBACK..........beautiful golden rays of the setting sunlight shone on us -twilight, signalled the most peaceful moment of the day, but you are the one, the one with the intent to break the peace. In that splilt of second, the word 'bye' had made me numb, unable to resucitate. Tears were dripping all over my face, once upon a time you were an exertion to me -a fairy tale, but now, everything is zero......... Am I really a all-too-willing-to-suffer person, or is there any method of avoidance for the future? Everything still remained an unknown.......

update.

a picture of me. :)

i wanna go pyramid this weekend, to shop!

didn't do that a long time already!

guess what? i watched prison break last night.

and i'll only get my contacts next week, arghh.

ps: if dya want to change the font and colour, please change it to bright colours because the background is black. :)

Changmin

TVXQ SWEET SMILE

“I will not only give to you my heart but i will give all of me, I’ll be the one to make you smile when your heart is aching, when youre down I’ll be there for you and when you fall, i’ll be the one to catch you. I promise I wont let you go, i will hold your hand and I will never let you slip away…” -Maxie (Shim Changmin)

YOU!

IF YOU ONLY KNEW WHAT I FEEL INSIDE, YOU WILL NOT IGNORE ME. IF YOU ONLY KNEW HOW MUCH I LOVE YOU, YOU WILL NOT HURT ME. YOU DONT EVEN KNOW HOW MUCH I LOVE YOU, I ALWAYS WATCHING YOU FROM A DISTANCE. I SAW YOU, BUT YOU WONT SEE ME. I WAS THERE FOR YOU ALL THE TIME, BUT YOU DONT FEEL ME. ALL I CAN DO IS TO TAKE A GLIMPSE OF YOU FAR AWAY FROM WHERE I AM. ILL BE WATCHING YOU FROM A DISTANCE, IVE BEEN LOVING YOU FOR SO LONG. I KNOW SOMEDAY YOU WILL NOTICE ME AND YOU WILL LOOK MY WAY…AND WHEN OUR EYES MET, YOU WILL REALIZED THAT I WAS A MAN OF YOUR DESTINY MEANT ONLY FOR YOU…WHEN THE TIME COMES THAT YOU AND I WILL BE TOGETHER, I PROMISE I WILL GIVE ALL THE BEST OF ME AND I WILL LOVE YOU FOR ALL THAT I AM…

Junsu

I CANT

Sorry, if I hurt your feelings, you know I love you but I cant show it, for now I cant love you, I have a big heart to love you but I just cant love you the way you wish for. You know hard for me to control my feelings when my heart says “I love you”. I do love you but we can’t be together for now. The hardest part is when I see you, i want to touch you and hold you in my arms but I can’t simply do that. I want to get away and be with you but my life is not normal just like you. This is my life, even i have so much love to give I can’t easily let it show. When Im inlove, I have to sacrifice and control it. I have to fight what I feel but what if I can’t take it any longer, what if I cant hold it any longer this feeling so strong. This feeling ready to explode anytime. You dont know how much is hard for me to see you crying, I cant take to see you go when my heart want you to stay, I want to stop you for leaving and beg you to stay but what can I do? I cant love you for now, i dont know when I can love you, when I can be with you the only thing I know is I LOVE YOU for always and even youre not here with me and leave me behind, its you my heart still want to love…

Jaejoong

I DO LOVE YOU

I know I am a star…

Hard to reach, Far from you

But for you I will down my level

No matter how long it will take

I will cross a thousand mile just for you…

For you I always willing to do

All the impossible things to do

This words I said its true

I love you and I always do…

Jajeoong message: “if you feel lonely, just think of me, if you are tired then let me carry you, if you feel you want to give up just hold my hand and don’t let go, I promise you will never walk alone, as long I am here, you will never be alone..."

Yunho

This is Yunho original poems…

THE GIRL IN MY DREAMS…

She loves me the way I am and I love her the way she is, I love you that’s all I can say, whoever you are, I love you, I just want to let you know that I love you for a long time, before I met you, before I see you, I love you even I met you only in my dreams, I wish someday I met you and my dreams will come true. . .

YOU ARE MY MELODY

You are my melody, a song I sing.

I sing a song because of you.

Your sounds like a melody to my ears, because of you I make good music.

You’re every word I speak, my voice and my music.

Every song I sing belongs to you; you’re lyrics I heard every time I sing.

Your voice sounds like a piano echoes to my ears.

You’re my soul and my music is you . . .

I AM A FAN OF MYSELF

Yes I admire myself, the way I am. Some people will hate me, some people will love me. Being me is not easy, many people expect to me a lot, my family, love ones and friends. What am I supposed to do? I can’t impress everyone. This is me; I don’t want to pretend to be anyone else. I want to show the real me but how can I do that if many people putting me down, they hurt me so deep, they don’t even know how hard to have a life like this. I am what I am but still they don’t understand. People look at me the way they see me on stage, they judge me the way I am “on the camera”. They don’t understand, even I am a star in the eye of other people, on my own belief, I’m still ordinary. I want to live a normal life like other people do. Yes, I am a fan of myself, this is me and I love the way I am. I didn’t wish for fame, or anything in this world. What I have now and what I earned is a payment for the hard work I’ve done. You should be inspired and love yourself, if you want to be successful, be true to yourself always and do your best. Important thing is you have to “believe”. Believe you can; believe you can do it so you can reach your goals in life. Be a fan of yourself not like a fan of other people, they only give you inspiration but in reality, you have to do it on your own. I am proud to be what I am now; I get this far because I believe in myself. Aim high! Fly high!

Yunho personal message: “I don’t know how will I express how much I love you, how much you mean to me, I guess with this simple things I do, you will appreciate it. I will continue to love you because my love for you is true, I feel you’re near to me even were distance apart; i love you with all my heart, body and soul. Saranghae!”

Micky's Journal

~Daphne~
2day i made a lot of post bc maybe i will be back within a few days
ok .
I went to a journal....maybe i cant defined it whether it was the real Micky yoochun or the opposite
but...I enjoyed reading his journal ....his poems & some from the others
Its very emotional....but......
when i read those posts or comments that offend him or other innocent people,
i felt a bit sad & angry ....
im wondering why this ppl doing this?cant they get their own lifes!
by insulting ppl like that....HATE IT!
well i love the poems really much and i appreciate it...THX u guys
There are some poems that im goin 2 post above this post
from the journal...i wish micky and the others dont mind
i just want to let more people to see ur poems
I wish ppl who visit this blog will like it
THX

obsessed, yet, again

;)))

although today wasn't a perfect day filled with elation and raptures,

i choose to start my post with a jubilant SMILE

..

..

..

perhaps i should quit concealing my true feelings

honestly, today was conversely HORRIBLE

D;

..

reasons--firstly, i've finally finished my favourite books for the time being ::

"A Series of Unfortunate Events-The Bad Beginning"

"A Series of Unfortunate Events-The Reptile Room"

(A.S.O.U.E.)
and i'm so uneager to part with it ;(
can someone lend me the dvd?

;;
secondly, i swear that i'll never never ever ever get carried away again

because i will always shatter, eventually

it's barely the starting of the fourth month

and i've already been through two of the worst moments in my entire life

everything seems to be aggravating.

i detest exacerbation! (who doesn't), why must this happening to me?

dissapointment occured, once again.

i'm frail, lethargic and inconsolable, unable to repel it

perhaps i may be erroneous about the truth,

but for now, i seriously despise discrimination!

(i never thought i'll say that, but now that i'm the victim..*sigh*)

if only i had sensed this imminent dejection, instinctively,

this wouldn't hurt as much as it is now

one thing i know, i'm kinda susceptible

never the less, i'm chastened and resolute now, so watch out!

**

i like Liam Aiken starring in ASOUE, portraying by Klaus Baudelaire

although in almost every ASOUE picture of him-the ones that i've set my eyes on so far- there's a repetitive expression:

a long, stern face

and sometimes, merely a subtle, inconspicious smile

regardless, that's the thing i like about him

and i'm so gonna watch Law & Order because he stars in a few of the episodes

and the other main reason is because it's Wentworth Miller's fav show ;)

*fyi, Wentworth Miller=Michael Scofield*
Emily Browning-portraying Violet Baudelaire-is fabulous as well

o.0

;)

;))

;;

well, i guess i'll be hankering after the both of them for quite a long period, palpably

quite unwonted huh? i think, for someone like me

i feel much better now, thanks to them ;D

.chao.

Farewell Party

~Daphne~
On Friday,our class 2 Efisen had a farewell party for Ms Yvonne....
We ordered Domino's pizza (bc i think Rifdi got the membership card)...

but all of us need 2 pay 2...
but its okay though...
Its kinda fun.........
we ordered 3 or 4 box of pizza,2 cokes and tcher brought some food...
the jelly and keropok is kinda nice.....thx tcher...
Luckily i came 2 class early(if not dun hve anything to eat)XD!!
the pizza with chicken n ham(dunno call wat)very nice...
also thx 2 OmYi for taking it for me...thx
So damn lucky that day
then Alex bought tcher a small piece of cake with a Doraemon face on it!!
Haha...kinda childish but its also so kind of him(didnt expect that)
then we took pictures together

but mostly the Malays took more picture...
(Chinese paiseh mah,hor?)
after that ,we just go PE.

BYE

DBSK & Us

~DAPHNE~
LOL....so tired ....
I just updated the blog...
I added a music player from mix pop..
it contains a lot of songs and video.......

wish u will pay a look at it...
THX
Then,I also changed the font and colours...
Lastly I changed the header to DBSK ....

hope the members of HEART dont mind...
This picture's just look like us(not the look)as 5 best friends forever....

FOREVER

Members

Im Sorry ,Carmen.

Thx for ur effort to the blog by doing the HTML thingy ...

I know its hard 2 do....

So i decided 2 change it back...

only i can put some music in ....

maybe after i put in the music only change the layout

HUMILIATION..........APPRECIATION

+JJAE YOUNG+

My theory: 40ppl=20th=Oh gosh so darned humiliated (still with equations HA-HA bad sense of humor). Foul mood, today is the biggest humiliation of my life(till now). What a disgrace! But you're there always being perceptive with me, always there to be supportive, having greater understandings of me than friends and even my parents . Anyway much appreciate your song, haven't hear anything from piano more potent than that. You're really meant to be outstanding. Do feel better now.

To someone who is always with me even there are miles between us

so hard to say goodbye..

went for track and field events today, under the blazing sun.

thank god i din forget my saviour-sunblock-this time

hah i make it sound so divine

my 1500m event was the first event for the day, and that kinda blew the leftovers of my seriously lacking confidence

but surprisingly, i came in first place, and the same goes for the 800m event

apparently since the LM's thrashing downfall,

the thought that i would ever get my hands on even a 3rd place title hardly made its way even through the suburbs of my mind

so this is a sweet surprise ;D

but, unfortunately the gold medal for the 4x400m event slipped through our outstreched fingers ;(

syahbandar won instead, congrats to the four of them

...

sometimes you get fed up with the erroneous compliments

you get sick of their elation which leads to their tendency to neglect the fact,

that there's a soft, brittle side beneath that tough-looking armour

that you don't suceed all the time, you get highly-strung too

you endeavour to explain, but they never heed

and when you fail-thanks to the glitches-you desensitize them at the same time

Get too obssesed...........

+JJAE YOUNG+

After a long and tedious wait (sounds like eternity) heehee whatever........ and here comes my NICOLE FARHI boots, somehow or rather I get too obsessed with shoes and boots. Every features of that gorgeous boots had made me surreptitiously run my gaze over it. I don't even bear myself to have my foot in it what's the point owning it. NVM at least I was'nt self loathing anymore MELBOURNE TRIP Urghh make me feel so miserable. My attitude has nothing similar with the shopaholic beside me glad, her motto: Only Buy What You Need eventhough she hardly stick to it, shopping absurdly, ignoring all the price-tags. She convinced me to take the boot rather than having a wallet, people would'nt describe you as girl-in-LV when you're on the street but in another way round, regime does it, so 'malaysian'..... The boots form a smooth flow with my mum's grey Benneton cardigan, having her borrow it from me is definitely inevitable. Actually I spotted a pink cashmere in Benneton too, but aren't Benneton too old for me....plus I have one in my closet. Maybe I should have been heading to MNG or GOGGLES which is much more my status HA-HA?! these brands ain't compatible with those okay....... Have to stop all these impinging on my mind, GULP ?!my grades are falling!