tension =.=

first day of our exams!!

i was feeling quite nervous, for no reason

(to be honest, my left hand trembled non-stop while i was answering my science paper)

we had English and Science today.

english was simple,

i bet truckloads of ppl will scrap an A or even 95 above for it, without summary and literature

and most of all, with ms. yvonne doing the markings,,it's possible

no offence..although i appreciate the fact that she's trying really hard to be a good teacher

the topic was really common-a day at the beach

(god we're no longer primary school students, realize that kayy??)

..

as for science, it was really easy as well

although i wasn't 110% confident with some of my answers, still i'm sure i can manage an A

i bet weisin can even score full marks, with that nimble brain of hers

with bm geo sjrh kh and math left to go,

just hoping that i won't let myself down ;)

...

've been training and practising running lately,

3kms a day..i wonder if it's enough (obviously not, i think)

it's energy-consuming, and i'm not capable of going much further

plus you need to push and encourage yourself to keep going on

"keep going on..it'll be over in just a few minutes"

"just imagine the day (4/5)..when you get a taste of revenge..it'll be sweet"

blahhh..self-comfort

anyway, music doesn't really help in easing that exhausted, lacking-hope-to-go-on feeling when you're running

i learnt that on 28/2: larian mesra

gawd i was fumbling with the damn earphones all the way

it brought hassles, instead of soothing my emotions

and no matter how much i tried to concentrate on the music ,

my mind was like " argh!! i'm soooo tired, i wanna quit" along the way

in the end, i got third place and certain ppl were like "huh why din you get first place"

look i know you don't mean to be offensive but that really hurt

wanna know what's worse??

i lost my medal without realizing the matter till idk when

i'm not upset (it's a bronze one, not a gold one, so no big deal)

it's just that..how can i be so idiotic, dim-witted??

but at least i gained 3 "valuable" (sarcastically) lessons which you don't need to know

...

i remind myself to try as hard as i can,

i understand your feelings

i know what it feels like

cuz i've been through a lot

the number of times i've experienced such a feeling-more than you could ever imagine

but i'm not the main problem of whole matter

you are.

you're not being paranoid, it's true

your instincts are true

*longest post ever..i guess*