huge problems..am i being paranoid??

*sigh*

something exceedingly awful happened yesterday evening

something that i don't feel like reciting all over again

it hurts to even think about it..

but it really woke me up

it helped me realize the fact that i have no sense of responsibility at all.

i'm such an awful, immature person

when will i grow up?

now, i really wanna grow up, till i'm old enough to leave

why can't i just sprout wings out all of a sudden and fly away,,

leaving these indescribable ppl way behind,, mourning, repentant for what they've done

i'm trying extremely hard to play my role, to fullfill my task, what i'm supposed to do

but you guys just won't let me.

as if it would kill to stop picking on me

what good will it do you??

i will, no, i MUST prove that i'm not merely what you think i am.

i will be more suceeding than anyone of you.

and by that time, don't mention the word "forgive".

we are merely total strangers with blood relationship, which i rather not own

is there anything that is capable of cheering me up now??

*going through a seriously hard time now*

i won't regret this,,or will i, someday??